I really hate the number of times people say they have OCD because they cleaned a cup or washed the side. I also really hate when people say someone has OCD because they are a bit clean.
THIS IS NOT WHAT OBSESSIVE COMPULSIVE DISORDER IS!
How do I know? Because I actually have OCD and it isn’t all about putting pens at an angle or putting a few dvds or books in alphabetical order, it takes over your life. Imagine hearing a voice in your head telling you something bad is gonna happen because you didn’t hold the door handle ten times for ten seconds at a time. Imagine being convinced your dog will die if you don’t check his water twenty times a day by putting your finger in it for five seconds at a time.
Sometimes I will leave to go out somewhere and worry so much that my house is going to blow up because I can’t remember if the cooker is off, even though I checked it ten times before I went out, that I will turn back and check it ten times then feel the urge to have to check everything in my house again then when I leave have to check the door handle ten times for ten seconds a time to make sure it really is shut because the voice in my hand is getting louder and louder telling me that something bad is going to happen or that someone is watching my house ready to break in and kill my animals and take my stuff.
I’ve tried ignoring it – yes.
I am waiting for therapy – yes.
When I do something and people who think they are comedy geniuses go and mess it up to get a reaction out of me really don’t understand the distress it is causing me – it’s not funny, it’s just nasty don’t be a cock.
There is a reason why I turn old photos round when I am eating, so just leave them turned around until I have finished eating, it’s not harming you, is it? Now I can imagine what you are thinking right now, old photos? Yes I turn them around when I am eating because if I don’t my food tastes different and I can’t eat it (yeah it’s not as funny as it sounds especially when some cock decides to be funny and turn the photo back around so I can see it.) These things you might find funny cause me distress.
I am constantly checking things from being at home to being at work. I get so convinced something bad will happen if I don’t check something a certain amount of times that it takes over my life. Add depression and anxiety with traits of autism to that and well life can be a fucking struggle.
I have everything I do in a calendar – if I don’t I get worried something bad is going to happen.
So yeah having OCD isn’t because you cleaned something or put something into a neat pile so stop saying you having OCD if you actually don’t it’s really offensive and you really aren’t as funny as you think you are when you say it hun.